Outburst~1

I tried ruling myself..
tried stopping myself of all that influenced me that moment..

There subsides in me.. a person who tolerates..
tolerated everything till the very last point of existence ..
And i tried to live with it and obey her intructions that moment..

The rage kept building..

I forced myself to go into seclusion..
to cut off from everything and wrap myself like a cocoon..
and held to it.. but the urge to get peace outruled..

The rage kept building..

I threw myself out to the world..
and tried an escape.. to feel everything and get oblivious to them all..
But they tried to kill me with my own thoughts...

The rage kept building..

The rage inside me.. is like a volcano..
Burning and ready to explode..
sometimes it takes a lot of courage for me to break it out and gain peace..
Sometimes its like a pricking off a balloon..

There i failed to hold on to myself..
The devil in me spoke..
With no emphasis on words.. tears.. feelings..
No heed to emotions and care..
Shouting.. killing my own conscience..

The urge to get heard..
The urge to be in peace..
The urge of justice..
.. demands an OUTBURST...

The rage that kept building inside me.. demanded an outburst..

- Nisha